Dear Friends,

On the 3rd of May 2021, my mom crossed over to the other side of the rainbow. Even though she is not physically present, I believe she continues to live in my heart forever.

Here, I share my journey of experiencing this colossal loss with you. Yes, it is a personal and profound experience. And it has taken quite some deliberation on my part to share it here on this forum. As I share, I experience a catharsis and also hope that someone somewhere, who may be going through loss, pain, suffering, in their life may find some solace through this sharing.

There are a multitude of thoughts, feelings and questions that arise. Though each person’s suffering and pain is their own, may we find comfort in knowing that we are together through it all. Being there for each other, listening and sharing our stories and most of all holding on to the Hope of a healthier, brighter and peaceful future.

I thank each one of you who has been with me and my family during these testing times offering your love and support. You have kept us in your thoughts and prayers for which we are deeply grateful.

Take care of yourself and your loved ones. Stay safe.

With Gratitude & Love,
Nitasha

Written & Recited by Nitasha Sharma

A special thanks to my brother, Vishal, for recording this. As I attempted to recite this, he stood by me. I was in tears, and I told him, "my tears are not stopping, I can't do this!" He just told me to take a deep breath and start over, believing that I could and that this had to be done. Thank you Vishal. (   / karoyes  )

Music by: https://www.purple-planet.com - Sense Of Loss

This video is divided into 9 sections. The timestamps for these sections are given below:

1. The Cremation | दाह संस्कार | 00:38
2. Thoughts, Emotions, Questions | कुछ जज़्बात, ख्याल, सवाल | 2:05
3. Home Without You | तेरे बग़ैर अधूरा है ये घर ओर अधूरे हैं हम | 3:29
4. Your Presence and Roles | तू हर वक़्त, हर चीज़ में शामिल | 5:20
5. We are in You and You In Us | तुझे हम बाहर क्या ढूँडे, जब तू है मौजूद हम में | 6:25
6. Going Within | सोचती हूँ ये ज़िन्दगी क्या बला है? | 7:16
7. Inner Churning: Questioning My Conditioning |सिलसिला अपनी समझ को फिर से समझने का | 8:42
8. The Conversation & The Choices | ये तेरी आवाज़ है या मेरी | 10:18
9. Mumma Speaks, I Listen | तू बोल ना माँ, मैं सुन रही हूँ | 12:34