It's okay to not be okay i guess... this video is not here to promote horror act, but to share my feeling, story and maybe to make people with same thoughts as me to relate and see that they are not alone in depression, i hope we will win this fight against ourselves, don't give up yet, find help if you can...
The blue lily is losing all its petals.

Manga/Anime : Kotonoha no Niwa (The garden of words)
Autor : Makoto Shinkai
Illustrator : Midori Motohashi
Film/Movie by CoMix Wave Films
Music : Shoko Komi - It's Time To Bid Farewell

This video is not monetized, and non-profit.
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Lyrics :

( How to end this pain ? )
( How to hope again ? )
( Do i deserved this ? )
( Praying for a bliss )

Life of a non desired kid
Never got the love a child should have with all this people saying,
"Your birth was an error"
Always convinced that I'm just
Bothering all of you with my presence
I no longer look the mirror

I'm falling apart
You'll never know how broken i am,
i know that i'm fucked because the pain feels nice
I'm looking for a start
You'll never know how many times i tried to kill myselft since the day i realized that death is my only solution to get rid off the pain

And i still see the darkness into the foul black wall of my room
Fighting all this ghost voices in my head
They want me to join the light
Hopeless i can't reach out for help i think it's time to bid farewell
I think it's time to bid farewell

Life in total solitude
Always suffered mental abuse,
I was the child who never smiled
Oh that's prolly why I've always been put aside By many
Don't pretend you love me
Always convinced that i am blessed by a curse
Spend most the time crying and wondering
What's the point of going on ?
Don't pretend you can fix me

I'm losing hope
You'll love me one day and left me all alone the next day because i'm here but lacking presence
I'm looking for a rope
You'll never know how many times i tried to reach the surface but now i just give up a death in the ocean would be beautiful

I think it's time
To bid farewell
i think it's time
To say goodbye
I think it's time to say goodbye ( goodbye )
I think it's time to bid farewell ( farewell )
ooooh, ooooh

And i still see the darkness into the foum black wall of my room
Fighting all this ghost voices in my head
They want me to join the light
Hopeless i can't reach out for help i think it's time to bid farewell

I think it's time to
I think it's time to
I think it's time to
I think it's time to bid farewell
I think it's time to
I think it's time to bid farewell
I think it's time to bid farewell

Source and video :

Edited by me with, Adobe Photoshop, Adobe After Effect, Vegas pro 20, Pxlr express.

Music :

Shoko Komi - It's Time To Bid Farewell
Music own by me for the lyrics and some beat instru parts assembled by me to make it sound like i want, the base structure and flow is made by suno AI to save so times, same for for the voice ( as long i'm using the free version ) so you can just judge the lyrics that is made 100% by a real human and how the song is made, i wish one day i can sing my own songs.
My suno profile here : https://suno.com/@namiekuningham

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Twitch : Namie_Kuningham   / namie_kuningham  

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